At the age of 7 (which is difficult to remember), I was an innocent little girl that liked to play army and dress up with her brother. If I had any aspirations, they were probably formed around a whimsical idea of being the first female president or an actress or anything that sounded spectacular! I was an extremely picky eater, often winning the losing battle my parents fought trying to get me to eat something besides a raw green pepper (which I ate like apples). My faith was summed up with the words, "Jesus loves me, this I know. For the Bible tells me so. Little ones to him belong. They are weak but He is strong. Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me. The Bible tells me so." So I was covered :) Jesus loved me!!
At the age of 17, I was fighting to figure out who I really was and who I wanted to be. Seeking love and attention wherever I could get it, instead of focusing mainly on the One who could give both! My morals were still in order for the most part, and I still liked who I was. But high school sucked, and I couldn't wait to get into the real world. My faith was growing, but it wasn't really being nurtured the way it should have been. So I found myself amongst a lot of hypocrisies.
At the age of 27, I am living in the world, but trying everyday not to be of the world. My aspirations are centered around passions that God has given me, and truths I know to be true. It isn't so much what I WANT to do, but what I am called to do-- how I am called to live this life I have been given. My faith can no longer be summed up by one song's lyrics... but there are a few that can capture it pretty well.
"So patient, so gracious, so merciful and true, so powerful in all You do. You fill me. You see me. You know my every move. You love for me to sing to you. I know that you are for me. I know that you are for me. I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness and I know that you have come down, even if to ride up on my heart, to remind me who you are."
"Amazing grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me. I once was lost, but now I'm found; was blind but now I see. My chains are gone, I've been set free. My God, my savior has ransomed me. And like a flood, his mercy rains. Unending love, amazing grace."
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Right now I am going through some stuff. People in my life are going through stuff as well. But, God has everything under control. And I feel His peace and reassurance through all those things. His plan for me (at least the short term one) is becoming revealed as I wait on Him. I know it's all going to be okay :)
I can't believe I'm 27 years old!!! Woah.
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