God showed up. Why was I surprised?!

I know that God loves me SO much.
I know that He wants to provide for me and take care of me.
I know that He wants to love on me, and let me know that He is holding me.
I know that He wants to give me the desires of my heart-- after all, He created me WITH those desires; why would He not want to then fulfill them!
But... if I know ALL of this, why am I so surprised when He actually comes through?!
Why is my reaction anything other than expectant thankfulness :)

I am on day 16 of this Daniel Fast, and it has been a great journey so far!  As far as the food restrictions go, I was curious as to how much or how little I would actually be allowed to have.  The diet is restricted to fruit, veggies, nuts, whole wheat (as long as there is no yeast) and water to drink.  That's it.  BUT there are actually so many things I can eat, within those guidelines.  So I have very pleasantly filled up at the end of each meal.

The fast is obviously more than just about what food I can or cannot eat.  It is about refocusing my mind and my heart around Jesus Christ, remembering what He has given so that I can then get even more, and serving Him in thankfulness.  And that is exactly what I am trying to do.

Being unemployed at the moment, it leaves a lot of time for...... basically anything, or nothing, depending on how structured I make the day.  But I have now been able to get into a routine for my devotion/alone time with God-- every morning I start it with God.  While attending the M11 conference in KY this past February, I heard some words of wisdom from one of the speakers, saying that he does not get out of bed, or even speak to his wife while still in bed, until after he has prayed and thanked God for the day, and asked Him to be the center of it.  I tried it, and that actually holds truth for me as well!  On days when I pray before I even get out of bed, I am more joyful, loving, calm, focused and excited about the possibilities of the day.  But obviously God deserves more than just 20-30 minutes of each morning.  He deserved 24 hours of the day, every day.  Trying to refocus your whole life around an attitude of prayer is somewhat difficult, as far as being humble enough to realize how often you DON'T pray.  But it is also encouraging to realize how many opportunities I DO have to pray :)  So I have been working on taking those opportunities.

So... how has God shown up?
I know you are curious :)

Well... about 6-7 months ago, I applied for several graduate school programs.  I went to Scotland for 2 months, assuming that I would hear from schools before I returned to the U.S.  That was MY timing though, which was not in sync with what God had planned.  So... 6 months later... I have still been waiting to see what God has in store.  I have sort of been assuming that school was not the door that God  wanted to open right now.  So I started applying for jobs in various states.  I love my family, but I am not really tied to Ohio (i.e. I do not want to stay here) so I just did a general search for any social work related jobs in the United States.  From that search, I have applied for jobs in Alaska, Oregon, California, Kansas, Kentucky, Indiana, Ohio, Pennsylvania, Virginia, Georgia... and probably others.  I was trying to open as many doors possible, and not limit God.  Not that I could, even if I tried.

So yeah, I have been assuming that school would not work out and that work was the route I was to take.  Well, in the past 3 days I have scheduled 2 interviews for jobs in Oregon!!! AND I got a call from the Boston University School of Theology inviting me to be in their Masters of Theological Studies program (on special student status).  WOAH!  Both?  Really God?  :)

Why was I surprised.
God loves me.
He wants to provide for me.
He just wants me to trust Him to do so.

I am going out to Oregon for the interviews in a few weeks.  I am waiting to see how this is all orchestrated, and I am still praying about what decision to make.  But I know that God loves me, and as long as my whole heart is in serving Him, then He will bless my decision :)

But in all this stuff about MY life, I do not want to leave out what God is doing in my brother Jacob's life right now.  His band, Leora, has a show TONIGHT in Clarksville, TN.  All of the guys in the band have worked really hard on this ministry, and I am SO excited to see how God uses their music :)  Please be praying for their ministry, and that lives would be changed!

That is the update.
That is where I am at.
That is what God is doing in my life right now :)
Thanks for reading, and praying!